Exciting things are happening in my work life! Exciting things that have given me so much more energy! I have finally overcome the inner battle with the darkness inside of me. Which at one point left me feeling so powerless and drained – it was just devastating. But all that is over now. A new chapter has begun and it’s a happy one! In this blog post I’m gonna do a little introspection.
Read more and find out how I got where I am today.
In my previous posts, I mentioned a few times, that I was having some difficulties holding me back. While my personal life had been absolutely lovely, the professional side was long way from anything nice. The reason behind it really was that I was tired from doing a job that felt like a black hole. In a sense, it didn’t give me anything in return and I wasn’t going (or growing) anywhere. I mean, I had the best colleagues, but in the end of the day, the actual job I was doing left me feeling emptied out. Hassling with no prospect in the foreseeable future. Just the same old thing day in, day out.
I figured that this road was leading me into even more darker places. So, I faced the harsh reality that if I don’t start doing something about it, then the situation is only going to get worse. Slowly but surely I started to reinvent myself. I knew there was a lot of changes to be done and even more patience required.
All that was more than a year ago and my first resolution was that I got more into yoga. I felt like yoga was the key to calm my mind and help me with the stress coming from the unknown. I got into yoga so much so that I decided to get a yoga teacher certificate. That meant going through 200-hour teacher training that lasted about 6 months. About the same time I started my yoga teacher journey I also started to work on my blog. Though both those things made me happy, I still felt I was not where I’m supposed to be. I was starting to appreciate being in present. Which on its own felt like a present.
I really thought hard about where I want to go in life and asked myself what are the things that come naturally for me? What I like to do and I know I can excel in? The answer was actually simple. I narrowed it down to the things I have done in my previous work places, that had left me feeling grateful and energized. The answer was marketing (and more precisely it was events)! So I started to look for a job in marketing field. I know, it’s such a trendy field at the moment. There are a lot of social media managers and influencers and bloggers etc. That’s all cool, but the thing is I didn’t fancy becoming that type of marketing person. I’m used to having a job in a big corporation and I honestly like the sense of security it offers in this constantly changing crazy world.
From the moment I decided to look for a job in marketing I started to send out my CV. A lot of it was just random. Honestly, I was at that point where I was willing to at least consider positions that weren’t still 100% for me just to get out of my situation. You just gotta get yourself out there! – was my motto, on repeat. I got quite a few good callbacks considering the fact I had no real marketing experience to show, besides my own projects.
I have to say, the search was not that easy nor smooth. There was this one meeting where at first there was a talk about sales and marketing tasks. Few days later, second meeting for the same position had somehow turned into an interview about personal assistance. As a cherry on the cake, I was asked about my relationship status and weekend plans – I have never felt so creeped out.
And then there where those wonderful interviews that went well and I was supposedly in the last round, i.e. it was between me and one other person. And then there was no communication after the last interview. The thing is the nice HR persons always very firmly assured “We will let you know by the end of the week the latest”. Really frustrating to think about it. Why they do it, I just don’t understand. There’s still one place that assured me three times during the last meeting and then there was nothing. No wonder there’s a growing trend of potential new employees ghosting HR.
So, as I was being ghosted from a few places and ready to just quit my old job and see where life with no real potential for future ahead is taking me. I got an email from one of the place’s I had applied months ago. It was the one place where I had done all the interviews and tests and was told I was one of their TOP 2 candidate. Let me just add, I felt very strongly about that place the first time around. Like, I have to be there and it’s just perfect for me on so many levels. I just wanted to work there so bad. But I didn’t get the job I applied for, something told me that this is not how it’s going to go down.
And then, this one random day, in the middle of my frustration. There was this one email. It was basically an offer for a position perfectly matching with everything I was looking for. Let me just say, I did not think twice – this was exactly what I was looking for! A perfect match! 10/10!
The next day I gave my acceptance to the preliminary offer and gave the letter of resignation to my now former employer. Huh, I get a rush of good emotions just writing about that moment. It was such a happy day. It felt like the sun had come out after months and months of darkness and rain.
As of now, I have been working in my new position – as B2B and special events marketing specialist – for a month. There is still a lot to get used to, people to get to know, new skills that need developing. Some days it’s still a challenge because of the newness, sometimes I question myself. But one thing is for sure, in the end of the day, when I go back home, I can honestly say that I am happy. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off from me. I can honestly say to myself that I am at peace with where I am at this point in my life.
When thinking about my future, there is excitement and joy about all the new challenges ahead. There’s no feelings of being powerless and drained. Even if it rains outside (it does, a lot. Even right now) I still feel happy.
Maybe it’s just the sense of relief from getting away from something that was not right for me. Maybe it’s not.
And that’s the beauty of life.
I wish peaceful resolutions for everyone finding their way.